“I still can’t figure out if it’s bravery or cowardice to take your own life. I can’t figure out if it’s being selfish, or selfless. Is it the ultimate act of letting go of oneself, or a cheap act of self-possession? People say a failed attempt is a cry for help. I guess that’s true if the person meant it to be unsuccessful. But then, I guess most failed attempts aren’t entirely sincere, because let’s face it, if you want to off yourself, there are plenty of ways to make sure it works.
Still, if you’ve got to bring yourself within inches of your life just to cry for help, something’s wrong somewhere. Either you weren’t yelling loudly enough to being with, or the people around you are deaf, dumb, and blind. Which makes me think it isn’t a cry for help-it’s more a cry to be taken seriously. A cry that says “I’m hurting so badly, the world must, for once, come to a grinding halt for me.”
The question is, what do you do next? the world stops, and looks at you lying there with your wounds bandaged, or your stomach pumped, and says, “Okay, you have my attention.” Most people don’t know what to do with that moment if they get it. Which makes it definitely not worth the cost of getting there.”
Neal Shusterman, Challenger Deep